Tanpamu Aku Takut

maukah kau meminta dunia berhenti berputar?

aku ingin menikmati waktu bersamamu tak sebentar

maukah kau meminta langit menunda datangnya malam?

aku tak ingin melihat wajahmu lenyap dalam kelam

maukah kau meminta laut berhenti bergelombang?

aku tak mau riaknya usik diammu dalam tenang

maukah kau meminta matahari untuk sedikit meredup?

aku sedang melukis keindahanmu dalam sebait sayup

maukah kau menikmati kehadiranku dalam denyut?

tanpamu aku takut.

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All I Ask

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
entah kepada diri sendiri atau kepada apa saja. apakah bisa cinta hilang begitu saja? apakah memang rasa hanya permainan tangan Sang Kuasa? entahlah, karena sampai sekarang pun aku tak tahu jawabannya. kalau cinta itu memang kekal adanya, mengapa hadir benci di dunia? mengapa rasa sakit hati masih juga ada. bukankah mereka berkata bahwa cinta adalah kekuatan penuh digdaya?

maaf. aku terlalu banyak bertanya.

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
entah kepada diri sendiri atau kepada siapa saja. mengapa awalnya mereka bisa jatuh cinta. lalu saling memaki sesudahnya. adakah bisa seberkas luka menumbuhkan sebegitu besar lupa? aneh nampaknya namun begitulah adanya. terbukti bahwa cinta tak semutlak yang kukira. tapi jangan khawatir, aku tidak akan hilang kepercayaan akannya.

maaf. aku terlalu banyak bertanya.

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
akankah lusa cintamu masih akan tetap sama? saat aku tak lagi muda dan mulai menua. saat aku tak lagi pandai berhias dan mulai keriput di sini sana. akankah cintamu masih akan tetap sama? meski aku tak lagi pandai berkata-kata. hanya mampu menghadirkanmu tubuh yang mulai renta. aku pun tak bisa menjanjikan apa-apa. namun kamu perlu tahu bahwa tanpamu aku bukan siapa-siapa.

satu saja yang aku minta.
cintai aku sejujurnya.

Backsound: Adele - All I Ask

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s o r r y

is it too late now to say sorry?

I know that I let you down.

is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

:( 

SORRY

this is a very simple word with a never simple meaning, indeed. some people say sorry for some purposes. usually, people say it because they feel they have just done something wrong. thus, they need to say sorry. this very simple and short word (only contains 5 letters), even though is not hard to spell and utter, is not easily given either. well, many reasons cause it. I am not trying to be judgmental but, just admit it, some people are just too drowned into their dignity that they take those mistakes for granted and do not think that a forgiveness is needed (me too sometimes). :")

mengucap kata maaf bukan berarti kekalahan

mengucap kata maaf bukan pula selamanya bermakna kesalahan

meski biasanya demikian

see?

sometimes it is easier to say sorry than to lose something much bigger. we don't know, really. I've once heard that saying sorry means we have a much bigger heart than anybody else ever has. great, right? though it seems hard, it is not impossible to do. #notetoself sih sebenernya :))

I am not a type of person who can verbalize everything quite easily and my husband is truly the opposite. therefore, when there is a disagreement between my husband and I, and I happen to be in the wrong position, I do not directly say sorry. instead, I do something reflecting the word 'sorry' itself. okay, it is confusing but, you get it, right? :p it is sooo much easier for me to write down everything than to say it out loud. I'm weird, yeah, I know.

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BE YOU

some people might judge you quite easily without knowing who you truly are.

some people might talk about you negatively behind your back.

some people might be very nice to you but then stab you right away.

it's okay. they might just be a bit envious of your wonderful life.

keep calm.

they will soon fade away.

always keep an open mind. always be positive at everything.

be you, be the truly you because you are the best version of yourself.

kindness will always find its way :)

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