10 November 2017.
One moment I would never forget.
One moment when I have to talk to myself, hard and persistently that I need to stand up.
I have to lift myself up. I have to be strong and unbeatable.
Even stronger than before.
And I have to remind myself that I'd been worse than this. A lot worse.
But then, the tears were still flowing. My world was still falling apart.
I had to go through the process all over again to then get up and stand again.
It's okay not to be okay. And it's okay to have one hell of a bad day.
*sigh*
Sometimes I think God really has a super great sense of humor.
Sometimes I got really mad.
Sometimes I thought this was too unfair.
But then,
I do not know what God's plans are. Yeah, naive, it is.
But God's secrecy is sooooo freakin crazy.
Unpredictable.
Guess I just need to wait. Whatever that is.
One moment I would never forget.
One moment when I have to talk to myself, hard and persistently that I need to stand up.
I have to lift myself up. I have to be strong and unbeatable.
Even stronger than before.
And I have to remind myself that I'd been worse than this. A lot worse.
But then, the tears were still flowing. My world was still falling apart.
I had to go through the process all over again to then get up and stand again.
It's okay not to be okay. And it's okay to have one hell of a bad day.
*sigh*
Sometimes I think God really has a super great sense of humor.
Sometimes I got really mad.
Sometimes I thought this was too unfair.
But then,
I do not know what God's plans are. Yeah, naive, it is.
But God's secrecy is sooooo freakin crazy.
Unpredictable.
Guess I just need to wait. Whatever that is.