The City That Never Sleeps

When you read the title of this post, 

What do you possibly have in your mind? 

Or, which city do you have in mind?

If the answer is Jakarta, yes, you have your answer correct.

I have been to Jakarta several times in my life though this was the first time I visited Jakarta for a working purpose. What did I feel?

tired.

I don't know how I could feel this way. It's just the way it is.

It's too tiring to follow the rhythm this city has.

It runs really fast.

I don't know how but it's just fast.

a bit like in a rush in pursuing something which I don't exactly know what it is.

if I may have one chance to have some heart-to-heart talk with this city,

I'm gonna say:

"have some rest"

I love working.

I definitely love my job.

But this city drives me really exhausted.

I enjoy its modern architecture and system.

But I dislike the people.

They're too individualistic, too selfish, too self-centered.

Yet, it's still nice to visit this city to refresh my mind

from some routine which makes me bored and bored and bored.

so, thanks Jakarta,

for making me miss my beloved city, Malang.

Malang is still the best place to stay, to live, and to enjoy life.

see you when I see you.

Jakarta, 16-17 Oktober 2019

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Ada Aku

ada aku;
pada baris kata-kata di bibirmu
entah di iya atau tidakmu
aku tahu ada aku

ada aku;
pada duka yang buatmu pilu
deras air mata dan tangismu
aku tahu di situlah aku

ada aku;
pada daun pintu
yang menunggumu pulang
menatapmu berlalu lalang
terkadang pun kau bimbang
akankah ada hadirku di petang?

ada aku;
pada lengkung senyummu
terbias melalui untaian aksara dariku
terpantul dari ujaran rinduku
bahagiakah kamu?

ada aku
merasuki tulang di ragamu
terhirup di udaramu
menyentuh kalbumu
tertanam di dadamu

ada aku.

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Stranger Things

Kygo ft OneRepublic

...

Stranger things

We're like, like we're stranger things (very far)

We're stranger things (dream of places at)

'Cause that's just who we are

We'd used to run around this ghost town

Always thinking out loud

Are we gonna get out

I remember

We dream of places that we could go

Castles with the strange glow

People that we don't know

I remember

We left a life

That's ordinary from the start

We looked for stranger things

'Cause that's just who we are

Found me the edge of something beautiful and loud

Like I'm picturing now

Castles glitter under Spanish skies

But I'm just looking out for you tonight

Snow white mountains in a foreign state

Tell me someday we'll get there

Someday

Someday

I see a Technicolor shadow

Underneath your window

Just in case you don't know

I can see it

You cast an unfamiliar day glow

Different than what I know

Shining like a halo

I can feel it

We turned our back on ordinary from the start

We looked for stranger things

'Cause that's just who we are

Found me the edge of something beautiful and loud

Show me the sky falling down

Castles glitter under Spanish skies

But I'm just looking out for you tonight

Snow white mountains in an ancient place

Tell me someday we'll get together

Someday

Someday

A stranger things

We're like, we're like a stranger things (very far)

We're stranger things (dream of places at)

'Cause that's just who we are

.

..

this song reminds me of many things, particularly what usually happens inside my head. sometimes I can hear my mind talking to one another and I'm the one listening to their conversation. tell me I'm dreaming, it's just that I'm a full dreamer all the time. 

...

berbicara dengan kata sudah terlalu biasa

berbicara tak bermakna sesungguhnya pun buat apa?

berbicara tanpa tindak nyata gunanya apa?

berbicara sendiri saja

dengan ujaran dan aksara pilihanku semata

dengan aku satu-satunya

pendengar sekaligus pembicara

katakan aku gila

ini sudah biasa

diriku saja

tidak dengan lainnya

kalian tak kan mampu pahaminya

hanya kau yang sama gilanya

Malang, 19 Februari 2019

21.08

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F U T U R E

Malang, January 31, 2019

This picture was taken on her last day at her former office. Yea, she resigned. After ten full years of happiness, sadness, ups and downs, she finally resigned. She decided to do this months ago. She discussed it with me through our long night talks. Our chats. And deep down, I know it's the best for her.

She said I was one of the people close to her who could keep and motivate her until these ten years. True. I was the one who always said "no" when she insisted to resign. I always told her, NO, a lot people wanted to be in your position, it's just that you, we don't know yet.

Be thankful.

Be thankful.

Be thankful.

When it's time for you to leave, you will. And now, I know it's the perfect timing. There's always a perfect timing for everything, isn't there? So, yes, I'll support her no matter what. I'll protect her no matter what. And I'll always pray the best for her. She's the big sister I'll never have, so yes, I'll be with her no matter what. 

Good luck on your new path. I know it's gon be great.

InsyaAllah :)

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