"I'll never know what the future brings
but I know you're here with me now
we'll make it through
and I hope you're the one I share my life with."
June 27, 2014
this was a memorable date for me. I am gonna go a step further in my life which I have never imagined before. I even could not feel anything since what I felt was too complicated to tell. too many feelings to feel yet indescribable. at this moment, I am gonna give my whole life to a person rather than my dad, my mom, or my whole family. I am gonna give my whole life to a complete stranger I have only known for less than 2 years. (can you imagine?) well, since my parents already give their ridha to him to protect me with his life, then there it goes.
this complete stranger declares himself to sincerely give his life to protect me, to take care of me, and to make me happy. what a huge promise to fulfill. the only thing I can give him is my trust. I am gonna trust him the way he wants me to. I give all my life to him and so does he.
days before the DAY, we have been going through soooo many fights and disagreements. I got mad, he got mad. I cried, he kept silence. I was silent, he was too. the bigger the fight was, the more unsure I was. even the night before the wedding day, I felt like nothing. I did not know how I could be so sure to give my life to someone who frequently got me mad. then I became completely doubtful. once I really wanted to go nowhere and left everything behind. but then I rethought all about it and tried to go back to my life, no matter what. I tried to face it.
the time came..
that morning, I still felt nothing to him. then he sounded his ijab loudly through the microphone that I could hear it from my room. I got my knees so powerless. I got my heart melted. after he finished the ijab, I suddenly knew it. I love him. that's it, and no matter what. I just knew it. and I know it. I got out of my room to meet him and smiled at him. I forgot about those fights. I forgot about those cries. I only want him. HIM. amazing, right?
we have been going through ups and downs and yet it is proven that nothing can beat us. anything and everything can try to break us down but we know that we will keep on standing and we will keep on going. because our love is much much much stronger than anything, everything in the world.