Tanpamu Aku Takut

maukah kau meminta dunia berhenti berputar?

aku ingin menikmati waktu bersamamu tak sebentar

maukah kau meminta langit menunda datangnya malam?

aku tak ingin melihat wajahmu lenyap dalam kelam

maukah kau meminta laut berhenti bergelombang?

aku tak mau riaknya usik diammu dalam tenang

maukah kau meminta matahari untuk sedikit meredup?

aku sedang melukis keindahanmu dalam sebait sayup

maukah kau menikmati kehadiranku dalam denyut?

tanpamu aku takut.

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All I Ask

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
entah kepada diri sendiri atau kepada apa saja. apakah bisa cinta hilang begitu saja? apakah memang rasa hanya permainan tangan Sang Kuasa? entahlah, karena sampai sekarang pun aku tak tahu jawabannya. kalau cinta itu memang kekal adanya, mengapa hadir benci di dunia? mengapa rasa sakit hati masih juga ada. bukankah mereka berkata bahwa cinta adalah kekuatan penuh digdaya?

maaf. aku terlalu banyak bertanya.

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
entah kepada diri sendiri atau kepada siapa saja. mengapa awalnya mereka bisa jatuh cinta. lalu saling memaki sesudahnya. adakah bisa seberkas luka menumbuhkan sebegitu besar lupa? aneh nampaknya namun begitulah adanya. terbukti bahwa cinta tak semutlak yang kukira. tapi jangan khawatir, aku tidak akan hilang kepercayaan akannya.

maaf. aku terlalu banyak bertanya.

aku masih saja sering bertanya.
akankah lusa cintamu masih akan tetap sama? saat aku tak lagi muda dan mulai menua. saat aku tak lagi pandai berhias dan mulai keriput di sini sana. akankah cintamu masih akan tetap sama? meski aku tak lagi pandai berkata-kata. hanya mampu menghadirkanmu tubuh yang mulai renta. aku pun tak bisa menjanjikan apa-apa. namun kamu perlu tahu bahwa tanpamu aku bukan siapa-siapa.

satu saja yang aku minta.
cintai aku sejujurnya.

Backsound: Adele - All I Ask

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s o r r y

is it too late now to say sorry?

I know that I let you down.

is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

:( 

SORRY

this is a very simple word with a never simple meaning, indeed. some people say sorry for some purposes. usually, people say it because they feel they have just done something wrong. thus, they need to say sorry. this very simple and short word (only contains 5 letters), even though is not hard to spell and utter, is not easily given either. well, many reasons cause it. I am not trying to be judgmental but, just admit it, some people are just too drowned into their dignity that they take those mistakes for granted and do not think that a forgiveness is needed (me too sometimes). :")

mengucap kata maaf bukan berarti kekalahan

mengucap kata maaf bukan pula selamanya bermakna kesalahan

meski biasanya demikian

see?

sometimes it is easier to say sorry than to lose something much bigger. we don't know, really. I've once heard that saying sorry means we have a much bigger heart than anybody else ever has. great, right? though it seems hard, it is not impossible to do. #notetoself sih sebenernya :))

I am not a type of person who can verbalize everything quite easily and my husband is truly the opposite. therefore, when there is a disagreement between my husband and I, and I happen to be in the wrong position, I do not directly say sorry. instead, I do something reflecting the word 'sorry' itself. okay, it is confusing but, you get it, right? :p it is sooo much easier for me to write down everything than to say it out loud. I'm weird, yeah, I know.

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BE YOU

some people might judge you quite easily without knowing who you truly are.

some people might talk about you negatively behind your back.

some people might be very nice to you but then stab you right away.

it's okay. they might just be a bit envious of your wonderful life.

keep calm.

they will soon fade away.

always keep an open mind. always be positive at everything.

be you, be the truly you because you are the best version of yourself.

kindness will always find its way :)

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INFINITY

I wanna walk to the edge of the earth

scream your name

till the fires gone for my loss

I wanna drink till the depth of the urge

to run back to you and lay me down

make me yours

been crazy about this song lately. this is a song sung by Niykee Heaton entitled INFINITY. I don't know why I love this song so much but one thing I know, I love the lyrics. someone loves someone extremely much till this someone gives him/herself to be tortured. stupid, you might say. but sometimes people are easily blinded by love.

have you been through times when your love gives you no direction? you just feel it. you just cannot deny it? it's hard. really. even harder because you don't know what to do with it. okay, what am I talking about? love is confusing sometimes. and love is time consuming a hundred times. my God! I never get bored talking about love because I am proud of my life because it is full with it.

I have the unconditional love from my husband, from my parents, from my bestfriends, from my family. from those who love me. I am sure you will have those person loving you unconditionally. :)

back to this song,
I think not many people know this song because it is not quite popular (atau cuma aku aja yang telat taunya? hahaha). the music is not ordinary but it is sooooo easy listening. see how a song could affect you pretty much and tell me how you feel. :D it is as if our mood could be driven by it. remember my previous post about Adele's song entitled Hello? that's one of many songs influencing my mood so freakin much even if it has nothing to do with my life story at all *flat face*

try listen to this song. trust me, it's nice :))

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I'm a COFFEE Person

I am a coffee person.

I believe not all people like coffee, especially black coffee. I like coffee but I am not really into the black one, especially espresso. NO. it will keep me awake all day long. also, it is too bitter. I do not remember the first time I fall in love with coffee but I simply realize that I could finish all my work faster when it keeps me company.

I am a latte person, yeah I am that very mainstream. well hey, what is soooo wrong by being mainstream, right? when in the mood of adding some flavors, I would choose tiramisu or hazelnut. or I could straightly get to caramel macchiato if there is any. but not all coffee shops serve this type of coffee.

well, I once tried to taste Indonesian coffee called Bali Paradiso in one of coffee shops in my hometown, Malang. this coffee shop is one of the best coffee shops in Malang IMHO (later I will give some reviews about my favorite coffee shops in Malang) and it serves many kinds of coffee beans from all over Indonesia with many kinds of brewing methods. at that time I remembered choosing Bali Paradiso which was served through Syphon. I will show the picture of it below.

yep! that was Bali Paradiso served with syphon brewing method. my advice is: DO NOT TRUST THE PICTURE ABOVE hahaha. mukanya aja yang sok yes. yep, it was soooooo sour, I think. it was not too bitter but I don't know, I just could not get the perfect taste for it. when I added more sugar, it kept getting even sour and sour. when I just simply sipped it, it was too bitter. eventually I decided to give it to my husband. he loved it. yea, he ate and drank almost anything :p

I do not really know why I love coffee soooo freakin much. I just cannot live without it. perhaps it is just the coffee playing my mind but I don't care anyway. I still love it. I cannot spend my days smoothly without a cup of coffee. even instant coffee could get my eyes open widely. hahaha

I know. I know what you are thinking. I don't care :D

happy coffee, coffee people!

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live simply, walk humbly, love GENUINELY

if wealth is the secret to happiness, then the rich should be dancing on the streets.

but only poor kids do that.

if power ensures security, then officials should walk unguarded.

but those who live simply, sleep soundly.

if beauty and fame bring ideal relationships, then celebrities should have the best marriages.

but it's not here.

simplicity leads the world.

live simply

walk humbly

love genuinely

*found this writing posted by a friend on Path :)

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Silence Speaks

luka jika kau taburi air mata

perih tatapanmu

cobalah tersenyum

semoga lekas pulih segala duka

dalam sekali cium

- Candra Malik-

found that poem somewhere in Facebook. I forgot. I do not really know all of his writings but it seems like he writes a bit direct and straight to the point. kinda like it anyway. I won't try to create a biography of Candra Malik, I just want to quote the poem.

talking about poems...

I adore poems veryyyyyyy much. it took me soooooooooo looooooong enough for not writing them anymore. makes me sad somehow. I just lost my inspiration. got stuck. and got what usually is called writer's block. yea, hate it.

I miss expressing all of my feelings into set of words. I miss writing simple sentences with never simple meanings which could get into someone else's feeling. argh!

mengapa Tuhan memberikan batasan?

akankah semata-mata menunjukkan teritori kekuasaan?

ah, kami sudah lama tahu

candaMu kepadaku sering tak kenal waktu

okay... now those are my words. just that. I need more more more than those. *sigh*

NB: I changed my blog address into silencetrulyspeaks.blogspot.com ;)

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HELLO

hello from the other side

I must have called a thousand times

to tell you I am sorry for everything that I've done

well, I am sure most of you are familiar with this song. yep, it's Adele's song, Hello. everybody must agree with me that she is, Adele, I mean, always able to pull her listeners into her world, whatever kind of world that is. phew. despite her-always-influencing-lyrics of songs, I adore her voice, her song, especially her songs' lyrics so freaaaaakin' much. yeah.. that much. I know. I do not really know who wrote those lyrics but they always get deep, really deep into my heart. owyeah, congrats Adele.

English songs always have wonderful lyrics to recite. they are always full of idioms and extraordinary words. Adele's song is included. try not to be influenced with her lyrics, trust me. ;)

lemme tell you something about this song, which I could not get rid of since five or six days ago. (yeah, that bad). hmmm...

...

but when I call you never seem to be home

hello from the outside

at least I can say that I've tried

to tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart

but it don't matter it clearly doesn't tear you apart

anymore

...

yeah.. she said it's late for saying sorry. well, I don't think there is ever late-timing for saying sorry. sorry is still sorry, right? time won't heal anything, dear Adele. you are the one who can simply heal yourself. hey, you're the only one knowing where the wound is, how deep the wound is, and what kind of wound it is. hahaha, I am talking randomly, I know. :D

let's just say this song gets really really deeeeeeeep into some people anyway ;)

good job, Adele!

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